Despite this complete transformation of my body, I've always felt like a fat person inside. I like to call it 'phantom hips' syndrome. I sat gingerly on chairs because I was afraid they'd break. I took the long way around because I didn't think I could fit into a small space. I constantly scoped out other women to see if I was the fattest person in the room. If a guy

I guess it's not too surprising. I was fat for 21 years - being normal sized is a relatively new thing for me.
Yesterday I looked in the mirror and realized I'm not fat at all. This is the first time I've ever felt that way. As a pear-shaped lady, I've always been depressed about my hips. Last night in bellydancing class, I decided I don't mind them. I like having curves. (Hey, I have to spend an hour staring at a mirrored wall - what else am I going to do?) Sure, like all women, I've got some wobbly bits - but in general, I look pretty good. In fact, some parts of me could even be called tiny.
I even don't mind being one of the few women on earth who says she likes her body - wobbly bits and all. Women are conditioned to fret about our thighs and bellies and waving triceps.
The thing is, I've worked hard - and my body does stuff now, like run and jump and dance. I should be happy with it!
1 comment:
It took a long time but you finally see what you really look like. Good for you !
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